Impatience - Conveyer, Cam Smith

You’ve never been the one to blame

(You've never been the one to blame)

That one to know that I’m at fault

But never take it out on me

If the two of us were both the same

I wouldn’t know where I need to be

You’re the bigger picture I can’t see

This one goes out to You

Solitude, at least that’s what I call it

Keeping those streets of gold on my mind

I don’t know why, as the years they pass me by

It gets harder just to take my time

No one to keep me from You

No one to stay my hand from seeking the truth

From reaching up for the only hope I ever knew

For every time I wasn’t honest, kind, or true

I used to think I was lucky, but I’ve realized now I’m just blessed that I

found some sort of home in a heart even though I lived so long in selfishness.

Because I’ve learned you know my heart more than you know my routine

and most nights it’s all I need to be able to fall asleep.

Because I’ve learned running away from home is like finding strength in

weakness, but I always come back around knowing that I can’t continue to live

like this.

So thank you for your honesty,

I’ve found that love has gone from just being sobering to being so refreshing.

And even if pain doesn’t go away, I just thank God you decided to stay.

Because I know I have purpose when you purposefully tell me you that see

something in me, even when I can’t see myself.

If this hasn’t been waiting in vain, I could consider this monogamy

Living devoted and betrothed to the One

Who believed in me and wouldn’t give up

If the clock looks like it ticks too slow

Even when its given time to grow

I’ll know for sure that it was my own impatience

That I’d feel better if my ego was vacant

In closing, I’d like to thank You for her

For every word she spoke to help me rest assured

That I’m not lonely, that I’m not falling away

For every time she reminds me of You and lives up to her name

Thank you for everything, thank you for having patience with me

Thank you for reminding me that God is all that I will ever need

Thank you for praying for me, thank you for giving me room to breathe

Thank you for letting me see who I am and who I want to be