Dead Flowers - Begonia

Dead flowers all around me

Line the halls

In every room

I used to find them pretty

Used to love their sweet perfume

Reminded me of the dandelions cut from my parents yard

Reminded me times I didn’t need to try so hard

Dead flowers

Dead flowers

Dead

Past midnight in a hotel room

These late hours that I keep

Used to scream out stories from my bed

Kept my sister from her sleep

Reminds me of the times you told me I best settle down

Reminds me of the names I earned when no one was around

Past midnight

Darkest moonlight

Dead

And anytime I try to be mad

I seem to empathize

When friends say you’re not right in the head

It don’t stop this crying

I’m skating on a line

Trying to be fine

I should be by now

If I just count the years gone by

Dead flowers all around me

I don’t keep them just for fun

They used to be a sign I would hide from everyone

Reminding me of consolation after words would cut

Reminding me of all the ways that you kept my mouth shut

Reminds me of the time you broke down my front door

Reminding me of how you cannot hurt me anymore