Wither // Collapse - Vices

Every day it starts the same

I see my reflection and nothing has changed

How much longer do I have to last?

I stare at the ceiling and the noise starts

The voice is my own so I have to listen

To every single criticism

Every one of my mistakes

Every moment I’m awake

I’m so tired of being awake

Every night I fall asleep

Willing my spirit to retreat

I don’t eat and I don’t sleep

My body just endures

My mind is wondering and my spirit is flailing

This vessel seems eternal

I didn’t ask for this

I didn’t ask for strength

Please just let me rest

My sense of self-preservation is too strong to wither

But every morning I wake up hoping for a way out

A chance to collapse

And I don’t want to endure

And I don’t want to persevere

I just want a way out of here