Floodwall - Telltale

I’m alone, in this crowded room

The blood on my hands and what’s spilled on my shoes

And the strangers passing by

With their stolen glances from hazy eyes

And I know we’ll both be gone by this time next year

(Stop running from it, you’re just running from it)

Another version of me moved up north of here

(You're just running from it)

I’m nineteen almost twenty and forgotten how it feels to be me

Most nights I’m too fucked up to even reach the kitchen sink

So I’m pouring it out on the page like my stomach down the drain

And if you ever hear this song just know I’m always out here standing

In the rain

Too many thoughts to put into words

So sink the truth right where it hurts

I’m not my mother’s son cause I drink too much

And I could never be enough

And I know that somewhere deep down you’re proud of me

(But from birth I’ve fought this urge to just fade away)

Between the bottom of a bottle and a balcony

(Spare me your sympathy)

I’m nineteen almost twenty and forgotten how it feels to be me

Most nights I’m too fucked up to even reach the kitchen sink

So I’m pouring it out on the page like my stomach down the drain

And if you ever hear this song just know I’m always out here standing

In the rain

Caught up with leaving you, I ache when I wake in the afternoon

An apathetic sense of freedom, bottomed out and lost for meaning

Ten stories up, the silence cuts, and all my blood runs thicker

Put the bottle to my head

I was the loading the gun you were pulling the trigger

Caught up with leaving you, I ache when I wake in the afternoon

An apathetic sense of freedom, bottomed out and lost for meaning

I’m nineteen almost twenty and forgotten how it feels to be me

Most nights I’m too fucked up to even reach the kitchen sink

So I’m pouring it out on the page like my stomach down the drain

And if you ever hear this song just know I’ll always be out standing

In the rain