Black Joy - Sycosis

You wasn’t part of the plan it took me 30 years to understand

That I ain’t the one who make it, debated over again

Rather or not to keep you, Rather or not to lead you

Knowing that I conceived how could I turn and delete you

Been in that clinic before, saw the pill and the needle

Walking out she in tears, probably thinking I’m evil

I’m thinking we dodged a bullet give our some time to build

We made love a week later ain’t give ourselves no time to heal

I’m thinking its time to chill, hit D.R.

for a vacay

Tell her don’t take the pill, wasn’t thinking about no baby

Was thinking about my hay day, be 20 something and rich

I notice she getting thick, acting funny and sick

I’m like damn

See now I understand, every thing it takes to be a man

I’m asking for forgiveness while holding on to your hand

Praying we can make it and I never let you down

On your head is the crown my first boy

You bring me Black Joy

The only time I’m happy is around you

A lot of you inside of me, inside of you is all truth

Its all new, still trying to make the adjustment

Fell back from everything, rapping, writing, and hustling

Problems feel like they double we struggle to stay afloat

Before I ever let you sink, my bare hands will build a boat

Thinking about your future, birthdays and graduations

How your grandpa gave me advice, on all these situations

I’m hoping to build a kingdom, hand you over the castle

Be the first one in the crowd while you flipping over your tassel

Cheering you from the sideline, basketball or soccer

Instead of being a rapper hope you strive to be an author

I’m hoping that I can offer, encouragement and support

But beware of Snoop Dogs while you trying to build you a fort

See you’ll catch that one later, we’ll watch the movie together

I’ll be here in any weather to make it better

See now I understand, every thing it takes to be a man

I’m asking for forgiveness while holding on to your hand

Praying we can make it and I never let you down

On your head is the crown my first boy

You bring me Black Joy

On your head is the crown

You bring me black joy

On your head is the crown

You bring me black joy

On your head is the crown