Mamma's Song - Sarah McCoy

Dear Mamma

It’s almost my birthday

You knew I’d use my thumbs

They flick the ashes to the ground

And keep me on the run

Now, Dear Mamma

Is it frightening to watch yourself get old?

Mamma, will I know when I’ve found home?

Now, Dear Mamma

It seems to me

Just the sun and moon are real

And they’re the furthest things

The furthest things from my touch

(From my touch.)

Well, I don’t like who I am

Who I’ve been

Or who I’ll be

And I know my reflection

I am a monster

I am the beast and

Dear Mamma there’s no one left but you to pray

You to pray for me

Now, Dear Mamma

The sun is rising

And it’s all uphill from here and

I’ve been running from a levee

That’s gushing water still

Mamma

I’m so sorry, well, for all, of my mistakes

If forgiveness is real, then I might live another day

Now, Mamma

I think I’m broken

Was I born this way?

I’m the worst person that I’ve ever been

And too guilty to explain

Well, I don’t like who I am

Who I’ve been

Or who I’ll be

And I know my reflection

I am a monster

I am the beast

Dear Mamma, there’s no one left but you to pray

You to pray for me

Pray for me

Pray for me

Now, Dear Mama

I know you still pray

And I know you pray for me

Oh, Mamma, when you talk to God pray he sets me

Free

Free