Inclination - Refused

It’s gone the safest escape, no trace of recognition

I spot some fragments, but its to distant

I feel it burning close, there’s no difference

Afraid to let you inside, but it’s just to persistent

When I inhale to scream, I feel no strength in my body

I feel numb and weak, I’ve lost again

Sometimes I’m afraid to try and sometimes try is all I can do

Afraid to connect, to reach joy

What was the lowest price that I could possibly pay

I shudder to reflect on it, I try to let it fade

Its coming on again, too strong to deny, breathe and make another try

How do we define strength to carry on

I haven’t lost my faith, I’m still strong