Godlight - Noah Kahan

There’s no way out of an angry crowd without stepping on some toes

They’ll scream your name till the lights go out then they feed you to the wolves

It’s hard to say who you’ll be when they let those big red curtains close

You know this

Cause you told me so

I bet you forgot

Black heels in the summertime

Dad’s bad cooking though you’d be polite

Honey now you got a look that I can’t recognize

Pulled me aside

And you said

To know me

Is to hate me

Is to hate what I’ve become

It’s to watch me

As I’m falling

From that ladder’s last rung

It’s to feel it

Like a secret

You can’t keep in

I’m not the way I was

I’m not the way I was

Were you freed within, did you leave your skin?

Are you tethered in your doubt?

Have you breathed it in till it’s medicine that you cannot live without?

Cause you came back home a fuckin' alien and we’re stuck here on the ground

Call mom back kid before the high comes down

Cause you forgot

Black heels in the summertime

Dirt road smoking on a Friday night

Now you got a look that I don’t recognize

You pulled me aside and you said

To know me

Is to hate me

Is to hate what I’ve become

It’s to watch me

As I’m falling

From that ladder’s last rung

It’s to feel it

Like a secret

You can’t keep in

I’m not the way I was

I’m not the way I was

But to feel it

To see it

The look in all their eyes

Is to breathe in

To be in

The good grace of that God Light

To have it in your hands

The one thing you wanted all your life

«It's all mine»

But there’s a hole I can’t fill

There’s a curse I can’t break

And I gave my soul to it

And it can’t be reclaimed

I was younger then

I was younger then

I was young

To know me

Is to hate me

Is to hate what I’ve become

It’s to watch me

As I’m falling

From that ladder’s last rung

It’s to feel it

Like a secret

You can’t keep in

I’m not the way I was

I’m not the way I was

But to feel it

To see it

The look in all their eyes

Is to breathe in

To be in

The good grace of that Godlight

It’s to have it in your hands

The one thing you wanted all your life

«It's all mine»

And to feel it

To see it

The look in all your eyes

Is to breathe in

To be in

The good grace of this Godlight

It’s to have it

In your hands

The one thing I wanted my life

It’s all mine