I Am Not - Melissa Ferrick

I am not smooth

I am not soft

I am not angry or mean

I’m just a little shut off

Shut off like the answer no

Or like the way water never holds

I want to be

Better than I am

Oh yes I want to need

Nothing but your hands

'Cause mine are so weak

My body it wants to move in

It wants to move in

And your ankles are so strong

I have seen you kick when you swim

You kick when you swim

This time I know

Yeah this time I know

That I am not wrong

So dry and cracked

My heart is set back

Yeah just like the moon

When it’s a silver resting on its back

I will not say

Just exactly how I feel

Because all of the answers

Have yet to be revealed

My body it wants to move in

It wants to move in

And your ankles are so strong

I have seen you kick when you swim

You kick it when you swim

This time I know

Yeah this time I know

That I am not wrong

'Cause patience is stronger

Than any kiss

And oh how I wonder

If we’re ever going to make it

Are we ever going to make it