Ephemeral - Love-Sadkid, Garrett.

Sitting back til I’m kicking the bucket

Went through enough of this running

Crawled through a lot of those trenches

Still I can’t ever warm benches

I been, slouching too much I still can’t ever take a break, it

Was too long to get it started now I gotta hit those same steps

Can’t just double backwards — relapse

Change up the sound for these tracks

Never forget where I’m at, never forget what it took

Taking too long to get my mom a house I’m sick about it

Bet I’ll get that deal and in a year they’ll never think about it

Gone, bound to be famous, after I die they’ll see my light for ages

Star since I was born my pops he prolly thinks I’m bound to make it

Swear he’s been my number one fan and he’d write an affidavit

Save if I forgot where I was from then he’d rescind the statement

Gone is the vacancy that used to be so soul shaped

Finally found my goal and got so lost in what the road paved

State to state I’m tryna get my name lost in the ledgers

Hitting ceiling after ceiling still I know I could do better

This a story of one who still is growing way too fast

To decide just who to be and still is confident they’ll last

I don’t got no time for looking side to side or glancing at my past

Gotta trail to blaze a pilgrim in my ways in every facet

Still I’m chopping on these tracks, too caught up in what I’m rapping

Hope, I don’t lose traction

Feel it in my person every pound or inch or fraction

If I want it like I need it then I really gotta have it

I ain’t never gonna be a unlit match, or a candle with a wick

I got too much on my back to ever worry bout the wind

Never rushing it too much I hope I keep my wits about me

I just wanna make my family wake up in the morning proudly

Gone are the days where I wake up just to get to school

Fiddling with my jacket hoping that I might be finished soon

Scared I’ll burn too brightly too fast and just end up outta tune

But honestly I hope that this music just ain’t ephemeral

I just really need to pace myself

Settle down for a bit and behave myself

Don’t get lost again that stuff that makes me hate myself

I just hope that I don’t ever try and erase myself, KiD