Collapse - Life Lessons

This feels like

A good floor to collapse to

I can’t promise you I’d get up any time soon

Or if you’ll know when I do

But you’ll know just before I hit the ground

Not where but when

I shouldn’t be here like this

Don’t want to know where I am right now

Don’t want to know who I am

Why can’t I see myself

Down the line from this?

How far down before I see it as more than an option?

At least it’s more, more than I’ve ever felt better about getting home alright

It’s more that I

Can count on fingers

The reasons I’m still here

Still holding back just to get a reaction

When I cough it up to feet up on the pavement

Like it’s what I’ve always wanted

getting just what I asked for

Should I fall apart before I search for progress?

I’ll get passed this

But for now I’ll get lost in the moment

Don’t want to know who I am

Why can’t I see myself

Down the line from this?

How far down before I see it as more than an option?

At least it’s more, it’s more that I have trouble speaking about this

But it’s fine

It wasn’t worth stepping out tonight

It wasn’t worth letting up

But it’s fine

As my go down with me tonight

It wasn’t worth stepping out of line

Why can’t I see myself

Down the line from this?