The Letter - Kristin Hersh

September 29th, 1984

Dear so and so

Gather me up because I’m lost

Or I’m back where I started from

I’m crawling on the floor

Rolling on the ground

I might cry, I won’t go home

So here’s the story

I am turning up in circles

And I’m spinning on my knuckles

Don’t forget that there are circles left undone

Very close to me

Forgive me.

Comfort me

I’m crawling on the floor

Rolling on the ground

There’s a blanket wrapped around my head

I’m moving in a line, it’s shaped like this

I’m

I’m holding in my breath, I have a room

Can you tell if I am lying?

Don’t forget that I’m living inside

The space where walls and floor meet

A box inside my chest

An animal stuffed with my frustration

Can you hear me?

Don’t forget that I’m alone when you’re away

You make me act like other people do

Forgive me

Comfort me

You comfort me

You make me die

I’m gonna cry

I won’t go home

Don’t kill the God of Sadness

Just don’t let her get you down

See, the man inside a book I read

Can’t handle his own head

So what the hell am I supposed to do?

I’d like to know how he died

My hands are shaking

Don’t you love me anymore?

I only need a person, keep my shoulders

Stand around, lie down

Move your hand above the floor

Gather me up because I’m lost

Or I’m back where I started from

I’m crawling on the floor

Rolling on the ground

I’m gonna cry

You look for me

Love, Kristin

P. S. Keep them coming