Deep - Ivy Sole

I think I’m in love with a boy

But I don’t deserve him, no I don’t deserve all your

Weary and worry and distance

I promised you anything, promised you nothing at all

My mama she told me to kill you with kindness

You killed all my courage, now I just contemplate killing these beats or

admitting defeat, rejecting the weak, I’m not trusting the fall

I think I’m in love with Chicago

But I don’t deserve it, no I don’t deserve you

You blistering, blossoming body

Of Blackness and blowing and bullets and

Home of my father

My father in heavy, my pain and my temper

You gifted me that and you gifted me empty

Giving my tithes, back taxes for envy

I wanted you gone, but I know that you’re in me

I think I’m in love with the rain

It’s falling and falling and failing to bring all this life that it promised

the life I was promised, I’m crying for solace and crying for you

I cry for you often, for Ruby, for Sybil, for Cedric, I scream like cicadas for

winter, I’m longing and living, so long live infra my insta is happy,

I hope that’s enough

I think I’m in love

I think I’m in love

I think I’m in love

I think I’m in deep

I think I’m in love

I think I’m in love

I think I’m in love

I think I’m in

I think I’m in love with the music

But I don’t deserve it, no I don’t deserve you

I take you for granted, I take you for foolish

I take you for given, when given is taken away

And I stray from the grind cuz I’m hurting or hungry or broken or stumbling,

my stupor is nameless

But I hope you forgive me, I’m making this offering so one day they’ll know

what my name is

I think I’m in love with my home

But I don’t deserve it, no I don’t deserve you

The city of queens or of brotherly love, I’m living between you,

I’m calling you kindred

Missing the streets of my humble beginnings, turning my cheek when you tell me

good riddance

I need you I need you, I’m asking for passage

My passages reek of your secrets and image

I think I’m in love with a girl

But I don’t deserve her, no I don’t deserve you

You blooming and beckoning body

Of golden and freckles, these heckles imagined and real

I’m holding you closer and pushing you sunrise

Or sunset, I’m trying to be braver and bolder

The weather gets colder, we smolder for sake of the sun

I told you I’m here til it’s done