Celebration Song - Holding Absence

I’m alive

I’m alive

To the existential dread

I let run through my head

The truth is that you hurt me for so long

And here’s my celebration song

I know that years from now

When my final flame runs out

I’ll be a grain of sand

Running through a stranger’s hand

But right now

I’m alive

I’m alive

I’m alive

I lived to see today

I lost so much along the way

And that’s fine

'Cause I’m alive

I’ve been so hurt for so long

I’ve been so hurt for so long

I’ve been so hurt for so long

I’ve been so hurt for so long

Well, I’m done

Trying to run

From all the things that make me feel alive

For fear that I might just catch fire

'Cause I’ve earned

A couple days amongst the sun

God knows I’ve more than paid my dues

For all the months that I didn’t wanna live through

The sleepless nights, the bloodshot eyes

This blissful pain contextualized

I went to death’s door, he let me inside

But for all my want, he couldn’t look me in the eyes, I

I’ve been so hurt for so long