19 - Golds

Everything that I know my heart needs

Is broken and out of my reach

Shaken and seein myself break down

Made it much harder to breath

Swear to myself someday when I’m old

This world won’t seem quite so cold

Swear to myself someday I’ll be free

And bold enough to back out of this

Misleading, lonely abyss

I’m sick of hiding

Acting like someone I’m not

But the second I’m myself I bruise the ones I swore I’d never drop

I’m sick and tired of being wired to please

Everybody here but me

And if I could, I would tear down all these walls that you’ve built

And maybe stand up, be a man for once

And if I could, I would tear down all the fear you instill

And maybe stand up, be a man for once

Living at 19 doesn’t make sense

Every spark of love just bends

All I want is to be clothed in the fabric of her love

Guess that’s asking for too much

I miss when I knew how to live just for myself

Now every dream seems to be abandoned on the shelf

I’m sick and tired of being wired to meet

All the other desires

Feels like my world’s on fire

And if I could, I would tear down all these walls that you’ve built

And maybe stand up, be a man for once

And if I could, I would tear down all the fear you instill

And maybe stand up, be a man for once

I swear you could say, you could say

About anything, anything

But I know that it won’t be enough

Still if I could, I would tear down all these walls that you built

And maybe stand up, be a man for once

I know, I know I can’t polish this, these stains

And it’s all because of my impulsive choice to misbehave

Locking eyes and locking lips

With the girl who my best friend’s in love with

Stealing her heart to breaking every fiber of trust with him

This is all so much bigger than me

I’m about to be brought to

I do, I do all these things

I have too much bad history

With too many people

Would it be so wrong for me to finally feel peaceful?

And if I could, I would drop it all and call her my own

Then maybe I’d feel like a man for once

And if I could, I would break out of this box that I’m in

Trying to be stronger like a man for once

I swear you could say, you could say

About anything, anything

But I know that it won’t be enough

Still if I could, I would tear down all these walls that you built

And maybe stand up, be a man for once