Remission -

How do I believe?

How will I succeed?

When the future is becoming hopeless and me overdosing is the only option I see

Decreased by vicious disease, the easiest way out was seeming complete

I see me screaming in the face of defeat

Seeking tranquillity, give me peace, can I please be released?

As I’m separated away from disease

I was medicated, decaying, I’m weak

Torn thinking I’m picking petals, they’re all thorns

I’ve been up and down always elevated away from a smile

Descending forever into my own frown

Volatile state of mind, someone please get me out

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It’s been way too long

Putting up a fight inside that I know I can barely beat

I’ve been pushed but I’ve pulled on

All of these strings in my heart, I know that they can’t feel me

Tell me why I can’t breathe

Is it all a facade, is it all my dream?

I’ve been fighting for far too long

As I sat on the sun’s saddle, my heart’s pain rattled the leaves

Direct into a hundred thousand degrees

Skin is a repellent, internal I bleed, I concede

Walking towards my sanctuary, my ankles barely kept up with the travel

That my mind is set to carry the concoction of hope and pessimism it had me

really worried

Had me either hoping to die or dying with hope in my heart;

pick a side

Look inside this barrel of empty promises to find something keeping me alive

I feel my heart reply when I decide to try

Tell me why a journey that seeks the strong sought out me but failed to thrive

Tell me why