Self Destructive Tendencies -

Self Destructive Tendencies

Why do I do this to myself?

Every time I start to move ahead

In spite of all that I could have.

I know what I’m capable of and my capacity for love

But if I don’t love myself I’ll only put myself through hell

How can I ever suppress therefore choosing to digress

I keep on living like I’ve died and I’ve got nothing left inside

Can’t say I’ve ever even tried to curb these self destructive tendencies…

For years I’ve conditioned myself

To deny any from of help

Measuring all of my strengths

Across these unrealistic lengths

I’ve got a sense of self worth, but no sense of purpose

I’ll accomplish anything, and just to throw all it away

I’ve done so much to get where I am today

Conquered my fears, looked death in the face

Grounded my self, lived life at a steady pace

Sometimes I want to throw it all away

Do I just fear success therefore choosing to digress

How can I ever suppress all these self destructive tendencies

I keep on living like I’ve died and I’ve got nothing left inside

I never even tried to curb these self destructive tendencies…