Bury Your Bones - Capstan

I hope my absence haunts you like a ghost

Eating away at you from time to time

I know I’m absent from your life and mind but you still haunt mine

There’s a different kind of emptiness you left me with after all of this

And I can’t wrap my head around the fact that you’re not coming back

There’s a chemical imbalance that you left inside my brain

You’re the reason why the alcohol is still rotting through my veins

I’ll be ok this is something I can get through

But I don’t know if I can say the same about you

I know a world of stability is all that you could ever see and when everything

falls apart

Dear God I know it’ll fall apart

I hope you buckle at your knees and think of me

I’ll leave you with this emptiness as your parting gift

These heavy words I know you can’t lift

(Between the two of you there’ll be a common rift)

And that’s me.

The problem you can’t fix

The chemicals have balanced as I’m writing off your name

I hope the thought of us and broken trust stays frozen in his brain

I’ll be ok this is something I can get through

But I don’t know if I can say the same about you

Truth be told we are not the same

A future sold that was built on blame

I pray you can’t bear the guilt and shame

I’ll stay a thorn in your side that’s worn with pain

Day in day out it won’t get better

Even your friends say forever fair-weather

Stay stuck.

You’re a stormy sky with an idle mind you deserve each other

And I’ve been picking you apart in my head

Trying to see between you and me if there was anything worth keeping

I’m empty handed once again

Constant consent.

You lied to him about the time we spent

Relapse.

Repent.

Your judgement lapse came and went

You said that life was built on compromise

A statement laced with fraying ties on borrowed time you’ll never find

So in the end you took what was yours and stole what was mine