Zen - Bizzy Crook, Leon Thomas

Yes, word to the pregnancy test

That she left on the steps

A reality check

I had to, woosah for a sec

She’s afraid to tell her dad cause he wouldn’t accept

But it is what it is, now what could we expect

What am I to do?

My mama didn’t raise me to murder no baby

So we gonna have to see it through

At least I love her

At least I love her

I don’t think I could choose a better mother

Perfect time to start thinking of someone other than me

Now let it breath

Of course I’m afraid

But I’ll find my way

Every night up I pray

Woosah, I’m zen

Woosah, I’m zen

Woosah, I’m zen

You made me feel again

Woosah, I’m zen

Woosah, I’m zen

Woosah I’m zen

She scared

I’m scared but I can’t show it

I fucked alot of things up but I can’t blow this

This ain’t what we planned for

My mama didn’t raise me to murder no babies

So I’ma have to man up

If I gotta get a job to supply for the fam

Then i’ma do what I gotta do

I’m the man

I ain’t got time to be sitting home laying

Even if I gotta go and drive Uber’s in the AM

My heart dropped when I heard a heartbeat

There’s a little baby inside you made from me

Oh my, this just changed my whole life

Staring at the sonogram I realized

That God was in plain sight the whole time

Of course I’m afraid

But I’ll find my way

Every night up I pray

Woosah, I’m zen

Woosah, I’m zen

Woosah, I’m zen

You made me feel again

Woosah, I’m zen

Woosah, I’m zen

Woosah I’m zen

Three way mama like «mama I got news!»

«You about to be a granny»

Mama took it better than I assumed

Mama cried

Like she finally found purpose again

It’s like, I don’t gotta see her hurting again

I know me leaving home at 18 ain’t been the easiest

Chasing something that wasn’t sure but I believed in it

And she’s calling like «did you sleep enough?

have you eaten yet?»

I called my cousin Abby and she’s like, «you keeping it?»

She’s fussing, I’m cussing

I hate financial discussions

She’s dissing, I’m wishing

This shit turned out a little different

Can’t let this fuck Up my vision

Thought you was down for my mission

But we in it together so let’s get it

But we in it together so let’s get it

It’s too late to regret it

So we might as well

Live with it