86'd In '03 - Bent Shapes

It’s been years now

And I’m calling off the search for myself

I think I’m comfortable with «uneasy»

Is there something that could teach me?

I’ve heard perspective comes in handy

But I’m not so sure from where I’m standing

'Cause I’m still sick with passions and inaction

Experiments in loss studied and practiced

Self-aware

But not too cool to care

I feel ill trading toxins for talking

And wrestling with doubt

Well, it’s all about shadowboxing

So don’t come a-knocking

This boy is up rocking

Arms around his knees

On a bare mattress/boxspring

Rode home too high

Shouting «I Hate Myself and I Wanna Die.»