June and the Laconic Solstice - Benighted, Michael Kern

The worlds close, cold and threatening

They left me no way out, no door anywhere

Just these big white walls and their majesty

Dripping with anger and hostility

They rise in the rigidity of the accuser

The steams of your stench hidden behind

Your emanations contaminate my senses

And enjoy what remains of my damaged soul

Suspended over the fascinating space under my feet

Waiting for the time I fall

My throat hurts as I scream with all my guts but no sound goes out

I feel my veins beat on my temples and their rhythm resounds in my head

The spotless white of the walls blinds me

And crosses my eyelids

Time has come to see the end

Time has come to tame the whispers beyond the walls

The question’s why the consolation

The question’s why divine redemption

My acts cannot be forgiven

Forgotten with neuroleptics absolution

These relentless images in my head

Of a magnificent and so familiar red

This silence I like rocks my grief in these last years

No word, no shout, just the silence

I’d like to meet the child I was, tell him «I'm sorry for your loss»