Bitter Pill - Apate

My whole life, I’ve wished I could stand up for myself

I try so hard to please everyone

Nothing’s ever good enough

So fuck my attempts at pleasing anyone

At pleasing anyone, what?!

Always been second best

Trapped to suffer

Left with this loneliness

Life’s just a parasite, leeching all I have inside

Leaving me to die, hanging from a rope made of lies

I hope death waits no longer

Break through the exterior

I don’t feel any clearer

This sickening feeling, it won’t seem to fade

Break through the exterior

I don’t feel any clearer

This sickening feeling, it won’t seem to fade

Because it makes me choke until I spit it out like a motherfucking

Blegh

So what do you want from me?

I can’t provide it, obviously

Fuck you

And all you want me to be

I’ve become a product of the world that is in front of me

Dried up and left for dead

With these memories stuck in my head

Life’s a fucking joke

Hypocritical, narcissistic joke

Hypocritical, narcissistic joke