Grotesque - A Life Once Lost

Your destructive existence is nauseating

Fake, with no self-esteem;

you’re nothing

You change with manic uncertainty

Now I will be the master

Now I will choose my boatswain

I push myself in and out of relationships

But I don’t know you

I push myself in and out of control

But I don’t own you

Exactly how should I stand here, waiting for you to finally answer

As you verbally bash me